I got you, babe

I hope that I am a person that people can rely on. I would much rather listen to someone spill their heart out than spill out my own. I consider myself quiet, introspective. In my opinion, why would I break the natural sound of silence with rambling nonsense? However, I enjoy listening to others, observing others. My roommate just told me something troubling her mind and I sat there and took it all in. I tried to give her sound advice, but I mainly was there to just comfort. There's a deep connection, a bond, through these interactions. Am I just the type of person that is asking to be told everything on someone's mind? Maybe. Maybe I just appreciate it when it happens. Personally, I feel more comfortable writing down my thoughts. Could this be because I don't trust people with my thoughts? But I want them to trust me with theirs. Ironic.

Have you ever seen the rain

My best friend, Amanda, came to visit me friday. She goes to school in New Hampshire but came back home for a weekend to visit. My other two best friends were supposed to come but something came up and they couldn't get a ride down. I'm not terribly surprised. Anyway, Amanda and I have been friends since 6th grade and honestly have been through our share of highs and low but still she has always been there for me. I missed her a lot so it was really good to see her. We pretty much just hung out together all night, catching up on each other's lives, eating ice cream and brownies. It was one of those nasty, rainy nights. Honestly, I had no motivation to get all dressed up and go out in the rain to get soaked out so we stayed in and hung out with my friends from the floor. The next day, my sister picked us up to go get bagels for breakfast. Amanda had to leave by 12 because she wanted to visit other friends at Towson University. It was really good to see her, I mean we talk on the phone almost every day but it's just not the same.
Last night I went to Santa Fe to see a Red Hot Chili Peppers cover band. I went with probably about 20 people from my floor. It was insane trying to get us all on the same bus. It was a lot of fun. However, I definitely feel like I wasted this day recovering from staying up late last night. i still have some work to do but I don't know how much of it will actually get done. Ohhh the life of a college student.

Tuesdays Gone With The Wind

My best friend is coming to visit this weekend! She goes to New Hampshire but her fall break is this weekend so she's going to come see me for a few days. I have to say that I am pretty excited.
Tuesdays are definitely my worst day. I have an hour and a half of womens studies at 9:30 and an hour and fifteen minutes of government right after that...the morning is very long. Then I have UNIV later that evening which, to be honest, is incredibly dull and just a little bit pointless. I really shouldn't be complaining, I have a huge break in the middle of the day to do work and eat but I'm so relaxed by that point that I do not at all feel like going back out into campus for another class. Everyone is returning to the dorms when I have to grab my books and walk in the other direction. But I'm sure that I can deal with it. It's not like it's a hard class or anything.
It's funny, I never thought that this would happen but I have to call my mom every day, whether our conversation lasts one, twenty, or sixty minutes. I may be one of the only ones around that does that. I've just always been so close to my mom that I can't imagine not being able to talk to her every day.
Something made me really pretty mad today, and maybe just a little disappointed in society. Some guys on my floor are organizing a football game and I was with them when they were discussing it. They didn't bother to ask me if I wanted to play and when I mentioned it they said that I could always be the cheerleader... who ever said that gender stereotypes were dead was surely mistaken. Then one of the guys keeps asking to play me in basketball, one-on-one, to settle whether or not girls can play sports as well as guys.... right. As if one game can settle such an odd question that really should never have been asked in the first place. And really, wouldn't that only settle the better player of the two individuals?

Something

I feel like I have been immersed in government reading all day. I probably read over 40 pages of dense text and every moment I was distracted by something or other. Struggling to stay interested in Locke and Liberalism, I realized that maybe I should really start to rethink my direction. I don't mind government but I obviously do not love it. Why is it my major? There must be something out there that I wouldn't mind doing for the rest of my life. It's just so final. What if I change my mind? Actually no matter what I decide on within the next four years, I'm sure that I will change my mind at some point. When I talk to people and they know exactly what they want to do for a job I feel slightly jealous. I can't be like that, I can't stick to a plan. How can someone be so sure about something? Are there never any doubts?

The Song Remains The Same

So it is Sunday, almost 7. Where did the day go? This is what happens when you stay up late, sleep late, and still feel tired the next day. Everything that I was planning on doing today has still yet to be accomplished. My stress is not relieved by the weekend. I'm pretty sure that I never procrastinated this much when I was in high school. I was one of those kids who would do their homework as soon as they got home from school. I was never a victim of the infamous all-nighters to finish a paper. I mean obviously I still have a good number of hours tonight to do my work but still, I would feel better if I was finished with it all right now. Ahhh, the life of a college freshman. I think that it's going to take more time to adjust than I could have imagined.
Last night I went to a concert with cover bands for Nirvana and Pearl Jam. The music was great and I was up by the stage the whole night. I went with a group of people from my building. I still have a ringing in my ears from the loud speakers but no complaints, I had a great time.
The football game yesterday was amazing. My parents were tailgating before so I stopped by there to pick up some food and then got to the stadum in time to get first row seats. Amazing. There is no better way to watch a football game than from the front row.

Narrative

I was a member of Saving the Music club at my high school and was an officer, it was one of teh only clubs that I was really passionate about. The goal of this club is to raise money to buy instruments for inner-city schools which lack the funding for a music program. Three times a year we organize concerts to raise this money. In the fall and spring we have Open-Mic Nights. A good amount of people volunteer to play for a crowd of students and parents and we charged $5 per person. I always performed...sometimes with my brother, sometimes with my best friend, and one time by myself (by far the most nerve-racking). The concerts demonstrated the influence that music had on each student's life. Music was and still is Life. There was nothing more rewarding than being involved in providing this same feeling for other students who were previously deprived of music.

Sitting Here Watching the Wheels Go Round

Why can't everyday be this beautiful? 80 degrees, sunny, the bluest sky, whitest clouds. I was planning on getting some of my work done now between classes, and to some degree I did, but I've found myself incredibly distracted. The trees that surround me are a magnificent green and the breeze is incredibly pleasant. These are the ideal conditions for my mind to wander and I can't really say that I'm resisting it. So I'm just sitting here watching the world go by.
I feel as if I have a lot of work to do this weekend but in comparison to others, it probably isn't too bad. I have a Cultural Artifact presentation due thursday for Women's Studies. It took me forever to think of a good artifact and in the end I chose a song written by and for RAWA. It's an organization and a culture that I know very little about so I'm excited to be enlightened. I also should start working on my english paper... that's important. Other than those two big things, I'm sure that I will have a good amount of reading for all of my classes, especially Government.
I have a group project due tuesday for UNIV101 and we are meeting today. Honestly, I really do not like group work because no matter what, the work is never distributed equally and it's hard to get someone to step up to lead and delegate. This project isn't really all that difficult so I'm sure that it will be ok though.